An Open Letter to Anti-Wellness

     A long overdue hello to all! Rough patch does not even approximate the past few years for me. As many of you know, wellness had guided my life after a major health challenge led me to it in 1993-94, from which I developed this made-for-the-web content and community of online meditation and wellness exchange. I enjoyed a long stretch of yogic bliss until I hit the next bump on my path in 1999. Still, I navigated through with my wellness tools and personal disciplines. Things got very rocky, however, when I moved out of a place I'd resided for over a decade, just days before 9/11. In Feng Shui, it is believed that a major residential move can affect an individual, couple, or family for up to 15 years. I am now 7 years into those "Feng Shui 15" as I call them, and also into my 3rd residence (yes, 3rd) after the initial move. Such shifting sands under my feet created a prolonged state of anti-wellness for me. None of my tools, disciplines, rituals, or former ways of being served me any more. Recently, though, I have sensed a positive shift in my inner and outer worlds, and the return of some balance between anti-wellness and my beloved wellness state. Though my journey took an excruciating turn, with the experience feeling Jobian and tantric at times, I did receive moments of deliverance and blessings that allowed me to hope it was just a detour. I always intuited that we cannot truly grasp a state of being until we experience its complete opposite, so here's to anti-wellness for showing me what wellness truly is. It's always nice to be back...Carolyn